"If you're going through hell, keep going." -Winston Churchill
I think I might be right now. Going through hell, that is. They always say that when life hands you lemons, you should make lemonade. My lemons must be rotten because this lemonade isn't very good.
I don't know why God is throwing all this stuff at me right now, I really don't. I feel like giving up and running away. But what would that solve?
I don't want to go into detail, but my faith and perseverance is being tested so hard right now. It hurts to be told several things by someone and then have that person basically forget everything they have said, and live however they want to. It really, really hurts.
"To be wronged is nothing unless you continue to remember it." -Confucius
I feel betrayed.
I just want to cry. And I almost did on the drive home tonight. But I kept it together because I didn't want B asking questions when I got inside.
I need a lot of prayer and good vibes. I want to come out of this with flying colors and be able to share my experience with other people. I don't want to give in to this test, run away, and ultimately fail. No, I'm better than that.
"The human spirit is stronger than anything that can happen to it." - C.C. Scott
It's just that some people (actually...one person) really need to be beat upside the head to get the message. And even then? I still don't know if the message would get through the darned thick skull.
(In other news, I cut off a foot of my hair today. It feels weird.)
"When the world says 'give up,' hope whispers, 'Try it one more time.'" -Unknown